It’s hard to find meaning in this empty space I often find myself trapped in, one I am so often unwilling to face and deal with. It’s like a mountain I need to climb in the distance, but I keep putting off the work, unwilling to deal with the task. I find that my life withers away though, if I don't attend to that mountain within. Somehow I have to close my eyes and find stillness and clarity amongst the fog in front of me. To find the courage to step into the dark shades amongst the trees. It’s a long way up the mountain into the unknown, as I sort out spaces that are unruly, that make me drift into the sunset of the day as I fall asleep at the wheel. That’s the hardest part, staying alert for the journey and finding the desire to continue the inner search, to recognize where I am on my path, and to address what is happening.

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That is where meaning lies, in facing the parts of the journey that are toughest to travel through, in dealing with ourselves in a way that is true, that requires us to get our shovel so we can start to see what we are really made of. That is where true meaning will be found, lost in the mundane, in the moments that feel distant and devoid of purpose, that leave our minds searching for something or somewhere else we can be instead of facing and dealing with ourselves as we are now. With all of that we skip over the depth of life that is available in that journey we need to take within, to take care of that which eludes our attention, that which we find ourselves avoiding because we are unsure of what to do about it.

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It’s in the moment that the subtleness of our inner world will begin to speaks to us, in ways that perhaps are unpleasant, in ways that reflect the very issue inside we need to address. That issue is that mountain we need to climb, the journey we need to take, a journey that has answers to that far cry that sends us running away. It’s a journey that does not always have to make sense, every bit and piece we discover offers a small key to something more, an answer that can carry us out of the darkness and forward into the light. A journey that if taken with courage and trust can pull us out of the mundane, and put us on the delicate tight rope walk of life we are meant to take. It's that very process that keeps us honest and humble, because you will know if you have fallen down, as something inside of you will send a signal that needs to be addressed. A signal that keeps you from living life in a way that is true and fulfilling. That is what life is after-all, a tightrope, a place within we know we need to go if we are going to feel engaged and free. So, right now, trapped in the mundane, this place of meaningless existence, I get my shovel in an effort to discover what is hidden in the fog below. That is the only way I can make sense of what is there, because hidden in that space is its own meaning and purpose, one that eludes us if we ignore the empty spaces within.